On Dai Lin Diary □ East Express reporter correspondent Chen Tengjian mechanized crossing text /<br>"Since drugs, my life will deviate from the normal trajectory, once cheerful and optimistic now I have become everything negative ...... I am afraid to go out, afraid someone in the street look at me with strange eyes ......"<br> <br>The day before yesterday afternoon, crossing the Cangshan police station in a private house in Jinan District arrested three drug addicts, while still within this rental found a diary, a book which describes a female drug addicts by Dai Lin (a pseudonym) living after taking drugs.<br> <br>"If you want drug less than one thousand times, but how are addictive, but did not dare want parents to call home, but feel that they want to be a mom can not wait, and want a long sleep, I fear death." Dai Lin inner conflicts,http://www.winedin.com/sauerkraut/pair_food_wine.php?food=register.cgi, tangled, fear, she wanted someone to talk to, but found that his side could not find a sympathetic friend.<br> <br>Today, I'm wearing a life it has been caught in a vicious circle.<br> <br>First contact with drugs because friends said the "secret" to lose weight<br> <br>4 o'clock yesterday afternoon, crossing the police station after the visit and dispatched within a rental Jinan District found three drug addicts, drug users have a three males and two females. After investigation,scarpe hogan, the man with one of the women for the male and female friend of Dai Lin, Liu and the other a woman is wearing a forest friends.<br> <br>Yesterday morning, in the Southeast Express reporter saw police station on ferry Dai Lin. A black-rimmed glasses, a black T-shirt, a some white jeans, dress and other young woman is no different, but the face was suffused with red spots, some stuck to the eyes and listless eyes "betrayed" her.<br> <br>Dai Lin is from Hubei, and later graduated from college in 2006 to Fuzhou, to work in a nightclub,http://store.shopping.yahoo.co.jp/wide/61892.html, there are five or six thousand a month salary money. "Later I met some friends in the community, they told me that they have to lose weight 'secret', let me try. In curiosity, I tried, they just told me that the so-called 'secret' is a drug. "said Lin Dai, drug abuse after she did not feel very excited, but the reaction was very slow brain, his head went blank," but this way you do not have anything to think about. "<br> <br>Later, Dai Lin and from a friend to buy some drugs, whenever a bad mood, she was always going to suck some, "it is to temporarily escape."<br> <br>But unwilling to face the reality of Dai Lin, her life has not changed, but the drug after she lost her job, can only rely on previous savings just to get by and buy drugs, increasing distress of life, so that the original optimistic she became negative,http://4510m.in,moncler outlet italia, self-closing. "I am afraid to go out,air max 90 pas cher, afraid someone in the street look at me with strange eyes, a bad mood, they can not find a friend to talk to, only desperately drug to vent their feelings, after the expiry of absorbing more afraid of dealing with others. a. "Dai Lin wrote in his diary.<br> <br>Diary mentioned several times when parents biggest regret is not the mother<br> <br>Dai Lin said, she wrote this diary has been for several years. Because the influence of drugs, she had no friends to talk to, so, put his inner thoughts recorded in the diary, write a little bored.<br> <br>Diary writing some crooked, some even scrawled not write the date, can not determine the specific time of each diary written,woolrich outlet, but it can be seen from the diary Daehlin inner world.<br> <br>"Today, suddenly homesick,http://store.shopping.yahoo.co.jp/ebest-dvd/0000000749986.html, want to come is the kind of miss my parents, and my long two small eye teeth sister,http://www.suma-yc.org, miss you and all the family All in all, I never found the missing is so deep. has not stop the tears. "Dai Lin mentioned in the diary of her parents no less than ten times,http://store.shopping.yahoo.co.jp/accessorymart/81227.html, and parents would like to think of tears,http://store.shopping.yahoo.co.jp/waiwai/gw-a1000fc-2a.html, but the thought of their own drug experiences and now chaotic life, she always mention courage can not afford to call home, because every time she called all the stories, but also had a line of talk and planted more lies.<br> <br>"Lying really tired." Dai Lin wrote in his diary. In order to let parents know their real situation, Dai Lin has not been home for five or six years.<br> <br>Since childhood, I'm wearing a very doting father, he touches mother because I'm wearing naughty and teach her. I'm wearing a very rebellious child, and parents are always against,http://store.shopping.yahoo.co.jp/m-one-m/shevan-b.html, and even bloom away from home, but now I feel I'm wearing, "she spoiled with beaten already a luxury."<br> <br>Dai Lin said, and now her biggest regret is not able to do a mother, and when to realize this wish, she was not clear.<br> <br>Even after taking drugs not carry fruits "do not want to sleep after waking up."<br> <br>This is already the third time because of drug Dai Lin was arrested. 30-year-old Dai Lin today only 80 kilos, compared to the previous drug use and body, a lot of difference,doudoune moncler femme, and even fruits are already several kilograms of weight lifting does not move, the body often feel powerless. "Although want to go to work, but some powerless." Southeast Express Dai Lin told reporters.<br> <br>And other drug addicts different, Dai Lin said her body is not dependent on drugs, more of a "heart addiction." "A bad mood, you will want to smoke a few mouthfuls, to rely on the vent, but this time sucking, it may take six months before then suck again."<br> <br>Dai Lin said she was determined to quit drug addiction has no less than 1000 times, but each time fell short of success. In order to kick the habit, I'm still wearing the diary to encourage yourself. "All who care about me, you good, I will not let you down. This really determined, come on!"<br> <br>Even after the second drug arrest, Dai Lin also went to compulsory detoxification spent the 15 days, but still failed.<br> <br>"The only reason to live on nothing but the courage to die, just want to sleep on time every time do not wake up." Repeatedly addiction let Daehlin some give up.<br><br>
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